She's Sick

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01/01/09
first day of the year, i think mostly everyone will be celebrating and hoping for a new start.
i'm busy enjoying myself at my friend's new year eve party, which i think i've done something wrong. i should be spending more time with my family.
well. i reli hope to if one day is equals to 36hours because 24hours is slightly too short for me. hehe

i slept 5.30am and woke up around 9am today which it is so not me. my mum wake me up early in the morning telling me to get ready because my aunty is coming to fetch us to the hospital. my waipo is seriously sick. :(
who will expect to spend their new year at the hospital ? no one. not even her, my waipo.
dont know how to describe her situation. it's kind of critical. i know she will left any moment from now, just depending on herself. either to hold on or leave peacefully.
but guess she will be holding on as she hoping so much to celebrate CNY with us. i'm on her side. my aunties almost gave up. they dont wish to see her suffer so they hope my waipo will let go and leave peacefully. for sure it will be a very sad thing.

i felt the pain when i saw her. it was so big different from the last time i saw her. few weeks ago she can still laugh, talk and walk. now she cant do all of that. she even have to depend on the oxigen support to breath. her liver swollen and affected the lung. that's why she's having a bloating stomach now and breathing difficulties. i'm worry to see her situation. worry sick.
cant imagine how my mum and other aunties felt, watching their own mother screaming and complaining how suffer she is. even i cried when i saw her crying telling my dad she's in great pain and very suffering now. i wish she can share her pain with me so she will felt better. old ppl cant bear such a pain. cant continue more. i'm too emotional.

jz hoping it will be better for her. i know it will be hard for her to cure, but at least i hope she can able to celebrate CNY together with us. hoping so much that the God can hear her voice, spare her at least 3weeks more. i really wish to have one last happy moment with her.

i have no chance to say i love her.

外婆，我爱你

i'm helplessly useless.